Have you ever sat back and wondered where the hell that breakthrough is? You know the one. After you faced the storms and had yourself ripped apart and torn to shreds. After Life used your head as a basketball, made you stumble, made you fall, made you crawl on your broken knees. Every possible circumstance that could have sucked did just that and a little more. So, where is the breakthrough? Bankrupt, one rejection after the next from every possible direction until you’ve lo

I just had a good conversation tonight with a friend about how we tend to get caught up on only the highs and lows of life and ignore the distance that lies between each of them. We fail to recognize that this distance makes up much of our lives. Our focus seems to lie elsewhere, outside of this huge expanse that we must trek from either success to failure or failure to success or failure to failure or success to success. The expanse between highs and lows makes up most of ou

What if I handed you a strange looking object that you really weren’t sure about? You didn’t know what it was, what it did, what it could do… It just looked kind of futuristic and mysterious. And after I handed it to you, I told you that it had a type of magical power. It could make all of your dreams come true. The car, the house, the debt-free living. Maybe a little fame and some fortune. All of this, but it all rests within how you handled this curious object that I gave y

Really, the only constant in life is change. Things that I thought I knew yesterday are not the same things that I know today. Especially those things regarding my heart. I’ve noticed that the things in my heart grow and change over time. They are anything but constant. Certain things may remain the same for several years but inevitably those things will change, alter, grow, or even renew. Thinking about life in this way can be pretty exciting because then I realize I’m likel

Ok, I was more of a metal-head growing up. I listened to bands like Six Feet Under, Cradle of Filth, Slayer, Cannibal Corpse… But I did listen to some punk and many of the bands I listened to, like Slayer, were highly influenced by punk music. Punk represented pretty much one thing: Anarchy. No systems, no future, just disorder. Middle fingers raised to the government and any other authority-heads. A movie I watched all the time when I was at the impressionable age of 13 call

Today I read a little more than 100 pages of poetry. That’s kind of easy to do because many times there’s really only a single sentence on a whole page. That single sentence, though, can hold the weight of a 500-page book that has sentences filling every space. Write about me she said- for what’s the use in loving a poet if they don’t make you live forever. -Atticus That’s good stuff. I’ve been working pretty hard the last few years: the biology degree, the business start-u

We have to be somewhat realistic with our dreams. Meaning, we have to realize that life keeps on being life even if we’ve achieved the massive goals we’ve set for ourselves. (I didn’t mean realistic as in certain dreams are too big. Look as crazy as possible when you run after your heart. That will always be my advice.) I think what we tend to do is envision some huge goal that we believe will hold all of our peace and all of the answers to all of the things we’ve ever questi

It’s been a little while since I’ve written something. I was fully consumed in creating this new website. As I’ve said in a prior post, there was a serious learning curve in designing this site. But it was invigorating. Learning new things is just something that I love to do. I mean, I will literally “lose” 10 hours reading and studying with as much vigor as an O Chem student preparing for an exam. I got to see that type of passionate studying this weekend when my cousin, Aut

It kind of hit me yesterday that I always seem to be in this place of waiting for life to really begin. As if I’m not actually present in a life that is currently being lived. It’s like I’m waiting for something to happen before I’m really there. Before I’ve really “arrived”. Whatever that means. Thinking Life Will Be Better Later I always think that life will be better when. When what? When I finish school. When I get the job. When the band gets the record deal. When I get